The last time I saw Grey Lotus was in Arjuf, the day I graduated from the House of Bells. I hadn't expected any members of my sworn brotherhood to be there to congratulate me as I left the walled compound. They and all that happened in primary school seemed so distant and I had all but forgotten that ritual we'd undergone on my fifteenth year. Yet, there she was, staring at me with wide eyes as I stepped forward. The look on her face told me she wasn't here for pleasantries and I walked past her without even a cursory glance to her. She let me get three steps past her before she wheeled around and shouted at me with an accusatorial tone.
"Why! Why, Spark of Imminent Explosion!? Why do you walk from this place, destined to be a general; while my brother was carried from here, wrapped in his funeral vestments?"
Her eyes began to fill with tears and I halted in my steps, allowing her words to break like the surf upon the cliff of my back. For a long moment, we stood there, two armlengths away, in silent repose but for her strangled attempts to hold back her frustrated sobs.
"Answer me!" She cried urgently, wanting answers.
I had them, but not the ones she wanted to hear. "White Orchid knew the risks of his chosen school. He died fighting as he wanted. He was a brave man."
She found my reply indignant and reacted in kind. "That's it?! You're not even sorry are you! I am hurting and you don't even care! I thought we were friends! I thought..." Her angry words died upon her lips as I shrugged off the crimson silk shirt I wore around my torso.
"For three days and nights I hung, bound to the post in the center of the main compound. On the first, I was whipped by my fellow students. On the second, by my teachers. And on the third, your father was allowed inside to pay his respects. The greatest scars are his. I have already done my hurting... I have no more pain left to feel for you, Grey Lotus." She stood there, stunned and revulsed as she stared at the pattern of intersecting lines that claimed by shoulders and back. I reshouldered my shirt and continued walking, never to look back.
"Why! Why, Spark of Imminent Explosion!? Why do you walk from this place, destined to be a general; while my brother was carried from here, wrapped in his funeral vestments?"
Her eyes began to fill with tears and I halted in my steps, allowing her words to break like the surf upon the cliff of my back. For a long moment, we stood there, two armlengths away, in silent repose but for her strangled attempts to hold back her frustrated sobs.
"Answer me!" She cried urgently, wanting answers.
I had them, but not the ones she wanted to hear. "White Orchid knew the risks of his chosen school. He died fighting as he wanted. He was a brave man."
She found my reply indignant and reacted in kind. "That's it?! You're not even sorry are you! I am hurting and you don't even care! I thought we were friends! I thought..." Her angry words died upon her lips as I shrugged off the crimson silk shirt I wore around my torso.
"For three days and nights I hung, bound to the post in the center of the main compound. On the first, I was whipped by my fellow students. On the second, by my teachers. And on the third, your father was allowed inside to pay his respects. The greatest scars are his. I have already done my hurting... I have no more pain left to feel for you, Grey Lotus." She stood there, stunned and revulsed as she stared at the pattern of intersecting lines that claimed by shoulders and back. I reshouldered my shirt and continued walking, never to look back.
